What Was I Thinking?

Start a blog about ADHD?  What was I thinking anyway?  It's just another opportunity to fail.  And so I did.  Like so many things, I started out with great intentions along with goals to post every week, if not more. I was going to show my ADHD who is boss! I had it all figured out.
Then, I missed a post.  I'll do it tomorrow. Tomorrow became next week and then next month and I felt guilty and defeated.  It became just another confirmation that I'm a failure.  So I gave up.  Then things got dark.  Really, really dark.  I went into therapy.  I took anti-depressants, which just made me worse because I needed to FEEL my feelings, not deaden them. I got off of the anti-depressants, continued therapy and learned how to face my feelings. 
Now that I've finally climbed out of that pit, I'm learning what my new "normal" is. Sometimes it's a little scary because, while depression was awful, it was what I was familiar with and change is hard, even when it's change for the better.
So, here I go again, starting something I might not be able to finish, but at least I'm starting and that's something.